I need you so much closer

It’s one of those nights where I’m laying here, and I want nothing more than for you to be here with me.

(Source: cut-it-l00se, via restlesstoclimb)

He wants to talk about options. fucking lovely. 　

Sometimes I wish life would speed up. or change. or do something other than what its doing right now. I feel like ive been waiting forever, applying to schools, waiting for their decisions on scholarships. Even after being admitted i don’t feel much different. its almost like it didn’t matter. The things i had worked so hard to achieve didn’t matter? I mean, i know getting into those schools was a good thing. and i am happy to feel like ive actually achieved something. But i want to get into honors college so badly. and i find out really soon, maybe even tomorrow. and if i dont get in, itll just be another reminder that i wasn’t good enough. Is it greedy to want to be reminded your worth something in the world?

and thats basically the inside of my brain for tonight.

i guess i should go to sleep now

Woah text post

So today was ehh. flubby grades in english. yes, flubby is now a word. you can see why im not getting an A. anywhoo then i got home and skyped katie who is peeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrty without makeup just getting out of the shower. wahhhhhhhh. then skyped with the boy for about 2 hours. happy and tired, but mostly happy :)

I actually did worse on my SAT’s the second time…

WOOHOOO! FAILURE!